**Please don't read this is if you are easily offended, weak-minded or don't like me. I have been thinking about my past, "so called friends" and wondered, why the FUCK have I wasted so much of my time in life, concerned, interested and overwhelmed with those so called friends? Well, it's because they were ALL takers, NEVER... NEVER EVER givers. While I was, always.... and I mean always concerned with them and their current situations. If you (and you know who you are!!) see this and want to comment please don't chicken out (you respond, not your wife)! Show the people who read this (3 people, one of those is unaccounted for, ha!) the fact that you are a "man!" Man is in quotes because those that abide by that usually are and those that I speak of aren't and haven't been for at least 2 years!
It all started with a sleep over, while I was still in high school with a bunch of "grown ass men" still stuck in fantasy world. That turned into a lifetime friendship, but unfortunately it took 10+ years to realize who had the balls and who was still a child stuck in high school. Some are on the fence while some are clearly (I mean clear enough for my unborn child to see) unfit to be categorized as humans, let alone friends. So I guess you get my point? Oh..... You don't understand? Well... let me clarify. I have a FUCKING blog, (Holy shit!!! did you know that??? Oh, that's because you aren't my immediate damn family or my insanely close group of friends that knew about this). I use this blog for the single/sole/unique/ personal fact to keep up with my life.
I have a wildly unique, awesome, confusing, and busy life. I need to keep track of it some how. I like to remember the things I do and the small things I think I don't have time to remember. Do you? (the one's I question are the very ones this "post" is about). I highly doubt you remember the last encounter we had, quick, what was it? Yeah I thought so, you remember! Oh... you don't? Well you're just an idiot if you don't! (remember you assumed I called you that in my last post about you?) Yeah, I called you an idiot and that's because you are, on multiple levels. You have show your side and I'm so grateful. I have grown so much more than I ever would have with your old, experience-lacking, Debby-downer attitude. You turned me into the extremely successful person I am today, thanks!!
Hopefully you have changed since we have talked! Hopefully you have changed A LOT since you now have children (oh, snap..cats outta the bag bitches). I really hope you are teaching and influencing them down the right paths. I'm really concerned and hope that you are not guiding them down the path of settling, giving in and excepting failure much like your own. Your path in life reflects all these attitudes and it deeply saddens me as I use to see tons of potential in you! I tried to help push you towards success but easy, laziness and comfort became your fallback. Raising a generation on failures is not what we are intended to do, no matter your religious (I recognize your agenda), political views or overall outlook on life is. I'm extremely uncomfortable being in, and raising a child in this current world. Maybe that makes you smarter, better and stronger? But to me it's the normal thing to do, a fall back weakness. It's very easy to follow the path of the norm. Have you ever done something to make an experience for yourself? To benefit you're knowledge, education, or god forbid... for others? I have... and it wasn't so I could turn around and tell my peers I had done something they hadn't, I could care less.
It's easy to see and feel friendship and what goes on in that realm. I have multiple friends with children and I can see, within seconds, who cares and who doesn't. Honestly that doesn't matter to me, who has kids and who doesn't. It should NOT DEFINE you but it should help make you who you are. Am I a better/weaker person because I'm an only child or because my parents tried for close to 10 years to have a child? Hell no! I am who I am because of my PARENTS and the experiences they put me in and the the ones that found me along the way. Personally, I don't feel you can provide that if you can't keep a friendship with your our age group (or even worse, and younger one, ha!). What really matters is who tries and who shows what, in those extremely meaningful split seconds of human interaction. I know you don't understand, and that's part of the experiment.
I surely don't know everything and I admit that, but I see the interaction around me and it's hard to ignore. I have been made the person I am today due to my past. I really really believe that. It's actually due to one person in particular. His extremely negative attitude drove me to reevaluate my owe while excluding him and his family from my life. I truly am thankful for those that this post is about. My situation and position in life wouldn't be where it is without them. Really wish I could share my success with them (could actually use them)! I highly highly doubt they'd say the same, but that's fine. They have (this is and will be a stab at their decisions in life) settled and have convinced themselves they are at the top level in life. Live it out and hope your child extends your legacy? You have insanely great potential and could EASILY move up, take advantage of, and conquer in your field, but you're fucking settled, lazy and a slacker! Drives me crazy, can you tell?
Point and case.
I KNOW... individually your situations, and know for a fact that you could move up in your current roles and/or take advantage of your field to increase income and ultimately happiness. Why in the damn world would I say this after the way you have treated me? Because friendship and professionalism DO NOT go hand in hand. I, unfortunately, have first hand experience with this. You don't know about this because you don't know about my experience with starting a company and having it drained due to a bad assumption about a person, much like my experience with you.
Yet another worthwhile experience I needed on my path in life, but...
Fortunately my time with him was expedited compared to my wasted time/experience with you useless fools. I really wish and wonder what my life would have been like had I surpassed you. I totally outgrew some you high school grads in my junior year. It's very sad to look back now and see all the time I wasted but it is what it is, and at least I gained one true friend that has remained true though all this. The true colors were shown at his wedding. I learned more at that wedding than I did at my own about who my friends were! Truth said, I would LOVE to redo my wedding day! Not only because it was the HANDS DOWN best day of my life, but because some the men that stood by my side were not men at all. That, overall truly upsets me, straight to the core, more than anything else. Well, besides the fact that these guys are to weak to talk to me face to face about their concerns and have their wife talk to my wife about the situation. Really? If you have a comment or concern about my PERSONAL (my blog, NO ONE, and I mean NO ONE knows about besides family) writings than, fucking be a man and talk to me! Not my wife?! Really it just relates back to the fact that you can't excel in your career and are "floating" by. So I take it as a compliment honestly. You're so mad at yourself you have to try and upset others. I get it, but damn get over it or try and push that on people that might care, like..hummm that dude that cut you off at the intersection. I'm sure that they care as much as I do, haha!
Man... we never had a good time, pssshhhttt. Really miss that and wonder, what could we be doing this week? Maybe you still have that? I hope so because I do. But still to bad you had to go and ruin it!
Keith's 30thJason's 30th NHLAS 08Moto GP Indy 08FL tripHope your children are at least an 8th the person you are and can provide to our society. Really hope they don't turn out different from your believes or... heaven forbid gay! If so, give them my name, number and/or email, I'm open minded, un-judging, caring and LOVE hearing young opinions and could probably help them find a school or job!!
I can't thank you enough for making me who I am now, possibly giving me a super aggressive business mind and for helping me find and recognizing true great friends. I hope for the best for you all and that I'm completely wrong in my assumptions about you....
I'm not, right?! haha.
Good luck, ya dick! If this inspires you... please respond, call, text or email!
